Just sayin...

So I think I'm just gonna post some of my thoughts. It helps get the clutter out of my head as I already have a hard enough time thinking and organizing my thoughts as it is. Just ask Chris, he laughs all the time at me for not being able to complete a thought or a sentence.

You may or may not know that Chris and I were not trying to get pregnant and that I was on birth control when I did get pregnant. In the beginning I was not thrilled about being pregnant again for several reasons: 1) I had post partum depression after Adaline was born so I was working with my doctor trying to find a medication that would help me 2)I was just beginning to see an Orthopedic doctor about fixing my back 3) I hadn't lost all the baby weight from Adaline 4) We were wanting to adopt before we thought about possibly having another child of our own and I was scared b/c of everything that happened with Adaline's birth, I didn't know if I could have another child. Overall I just wanted to feel good and feeling like myself again. Once I did find out I was pregnant I began to wonder how my back would take it and if I would be in pain and miserable for the next 9mths.

As I am nearing the end of this pregnancy (I'm at 37 1/2 wks), I have to say God has definately been in control and I only have him to thank. I have not had any back pain whatsoever. This past month is the only time I have been in pain and it has been my hip not my back. I am overwhelmed and amazed at this little miracle that has taken place this pregnancy. It might not seem like a miracle to you but for someone who lives in pain majority of the time, it's an awesome feeling! My Orthopedic doctor is amazed at how well I'm doing and actually released me from his care until I begin to hurt again (thinking I would return when I was in my 3rd trimester). I have yet to return. God is good. For those of you that have been praying for me, I truly appreciate it and know that your prayers have been answered.

The only complaints I have are the basic pregnancy complaints: having a hard time bending over even for simple things like putting on socks/shoes, drying off, etc... having a hard time breathing (being short waisted is not fun when you have a small hippo growing inside you), irritability, tired, can't sleep b/c when you try to turn over in bed you need a small army to assit you, you have to get up to pee a dozen times a night, and the list can go on and on. But the Lord has blessed me with an amazing husband who is a tremedous help not only around the house but with the kids and doesn't complain if the house is a mess or supper isn't on the table. I am truly blessed.

Don't get me wrong, just b/c this pregnancy hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be does not mean I want to be pregnant again. Someone will be fixed!!!!

I am really looking forward to meeting Garner, seeing who he looks like: Kagan or Adaline, what color his hair will be, will he have that same pouty face that the other two had, I'm just a little anxious. I have had contractions with this pregnancy unlike the other two I never had contractions so it's a new experience for me. I have eaten a lot more with this pregnancy and have craved sweets more than not. I did eat 10 donuts in a day the other day and the only reason I didn't eat the whole dozen is b/c I shared with my children. Wasn't that nice?!!

I'm sure I had other thoughts I wanted to share but b/c I'm pregnant and have a hard time thinking straight I can't remember what those thoughts were, and of course I didn't write them down b/c I have planted my butt in the chair and it's too much effort to get up and get a piece of paper and pen. Maybe that will be another post and hopefully I can take picture of my gut before he's born and will post it for you. Just sayin...